ChaoticBloodflow

Sent to the Asylum The place of no return Where the daily bloodletting occurs The leeches suck the skin Where the "sick" go The "disease" is contained here The place where none return from I'm next in line for the bloodletting, Its my favorite as it often causes me to feel joy In this constant melancholy of an existance

Surrounded by those who claim they care I plead "Someone help me..." No one hears Or they don't care. I'm alone once again Unheard by all My pleas for help unanswered No one truly  cares They say a few nice words To make themselves feel better To let themselves sleep at night I am truly uncared for And unwanted But no worries, Not like I'll be around much longer

A lighter Causes death for many Life for me When I am flooded Overwhelmed with my own thoughts Unable to handle life One slide of the thumb A slight sting on my skin And it all fades away A smile breaks across my previously sullen face I am saved And only a small burn To mark the moment It saved my life

The idea Sitting within my head Starting as a whisper Slowly growing Louder and louder until finally, its screaming in my head Telling me to do it Becoming engraved in my head I tie the knot I search and search For a spot One high enough to kill me I can't find one, The Screaming becomes louder Its frustrated I should be dead It tells me I can't be alive any longer But theres no spot high enough I'm forced to live For the day For the week Until I find a spot And the screaming Stops, and everything goes silent.

My senses overflowing, A never ending stream of emotions are released as I gaze upon your beauty, The stream quickly becomes a flood as our lips meet for the first time, And our bodies press together. Happiness, excite, and I must admit, lust, guide me as emotion takes over, I can't help but notice every perfect detail about you, Everything from your incredibly beauty, to your perfect smile. Though we have only been together for a short amount of time, I can't help but notice, Everyday spent with you, is the most amazing day of my life. Sadly, as all good things must end, so does these perfect days, And you must leave me until your

Satanic in nature, I am Unwanted by everyone. I sit alone in my room, hoping for death, to Creep upon me, reaping my soul and take me away. I don't see any beauty in life, death leans over me, sickle to my neck. Drowning in my lonely, I pull the trigger, the Air itself shatters as my savior pierces my skull. Yet, I still feel Life? I cannot move my body though? What is this? Regret fills my soul as I realize, Even though I may be dead, I have not left this body. I quickly start Getting anxiety built up as time passes and my body is discovered. My mother... she Runs to me, covering my body weeping in sorrow. Followed by more. I was

It's my fault. Everything thats happened. Its all my fault. The cutting, The Suicide attempt, The Anorexia.... I had the chance to stop them all. But instead, I spent my time being blissfully unaware. Of your pain. Of your reliance on me. I ignored you. All the text messages, Calling for help. Abandoned you. Like the worthless piece of shit I am. And now its too late... My every attempt to help, Falls flat, against the cold truth. The truth that my mistakes caused this, It IS my fault. And I regret ever being part of your life, because it was me who caused you all this pain.

Suicide? Pain? Oh that can't be for me, You see I'm only a boy I'm only fifteen Self harm? Indeed I have tried I know that its bad but, Does that mean suicide? Do I blame myself? Yes I do indeed I should have said no To what that boy did to me Happiness? I have no knowledge of this I wonder if its uncommon To never feel bliss? Oh well I suppose it fine for today For me to sit here unhappy Possibly forever, if not only until the end of today.

Why am I still even here? I know I'm not wanted Not by anyone. No ones here for me And those who would be can't help. Why don't I just go hang myself? only 30 seconds of pain to pass out and 20 minutes of sleeping to die. To release myself from this hell.